For months the closest thing I could muster to a prayer was “God, I still believe in you.” It is important for me to keep remembering that, just because I’m in a dark place, it does not mean I don’t have faith.
There are a lot of truths that just came to us more easily as kiddos. The world was simpler, and our place in it seemed easier to pinpoint. Sometimes, I find myself wishing I could just see the world more like I did as a kid.
I’m learning that faith is not the absence of questions, but choosing to believe when I don’t have all the answers.
Though I consider myself a Christian, I am well acquainted with doubt. When I think about “God,” the concept seems so astoundingly ridiculous; I can’t believe anyone in their right mind would believe — let alone submit to — an omnipresent, invisible, supernatural being, who created the entire universe out of nothing. During a […]
(And I don’t mean missions trips.) I grew up in a Christian subculture where leaving the church bubble was seen as dangerous: it opened you up to the risk of temptation from the outside world. Want to travel alone or go with friends? Unless it’s a missions trip, forget about it. And while you may be […]
My husband and I have been in the market for a new home for almost a year. Almost. A. Whole. Entire. Year. We have never been in want, but we are now in a season of wanting; wanting a permanent home, wanting a place for our child to grow up, wanting some stability and financial […]
This is Martin Bonner is a film that has slipped between the cracks of the feel-good optimism of Christian dramas and the harsh severity of Hollywood crime dramas. Are these the only two options? Of course they’re not; but in a movie that follows the interaction between a man working for a Christian prison ministry […]
I am starting to believe that God is intentionally frustrating. It seems like a bold statement, but as I listen to some of the things Jesus said on behalf of God, it causes me to wonder. The more I listen, the more things jump out at me as not quite right, or just plain frustrating. […]
I was a very stoic kid. Despite the severe brokenness in my family, despite reoccurring cases of clinical depression and anxiety amongst those who were near and dear to me. Despite the fact that there were various financial hardships, and despite getting in trouble for things at school that weren’t my fault. Through it all, […]
Learning to fully trust in God is something I will probably spend the rest of my life trying to grasp. Recently, I was blissfully swimming in the turquoise, oceanic waters. It was a gorgeous day. The sun was shinning bright, and there was not a cloud in the sky. My friends and I took the day […]